Congrats..?

Catatan: Tahniah, anda terpilih menyertai PLKN Siri 8/2011

so yeah. i got in. should i feel happy..? or should i not..? 

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no feeling. but that was what i felt originally. somehow, right now, i felt... away. far away. as in like, distant. well, none of my close friends were selected, except for Aisyah. so yeah, i feel happy for them. (: but can i really leave this place for three months..?

i want to cosplay. i've been planning it for months already.

i want to take my theory paper. what the hell la. i was supposed to take my Grade 5 when i was Form 3. and it dragged till i'm Form 5. now you're friggin telling me i have to wait somemore..?

i want to take my driving license. and preserve it for two years till i can remove the 'P' sign and start driving WITHOUT that sign. 

geez. but i'll be leaving for three freaking months. ): it's kind of long, come to think of it. i won't be seeing my family and my friends and all my animes and mangas. i won't be on facebook or writing fanfictions or even reading them. how..? i can't survive without these things. and my beloved phone. D: i can't look at Cloud's face. D: D: D: i can't listen to songs. TT

so for those who didn't get in, be grateful. it's a total different thing to say, "I don't mind being selected for NS" or "I want to go for NS", cause it will be a total different thing when you really are selected. initially i did not mind. but when i think of how things are going to happen in the future, i hope i weren't selected in the first place. but hey people, you know what. 

IT'S A CHALLENGE, AND I ACCEPT IT. 

BRING IT ON. 

well, at least for now i'll be saying that. :D

ps: is God testing my ability to handle stress..?

this has been a hard week. first, NS. then, my one and only tuition teacher, which is my only hope to improve my physics, chemistry and add math will be leaving permanently to Sarawak. D: how am i supposed to survive..?! i'm tired enough, alright..? please stop testing me. now every morning the first thing i think of is NS. where they'll send me to. which batch will i go. damn it. and now i need to find a way to survive my studies on my own, or get a second tuition teacher. D:

but mind you,  

I AM NOT GOING TO LOSE. JUST WAIT AND SEE. (: